It’s been some time since I’ve been back to the site. The thought of it had crossed my mind on occasion. Brief moments in the myriad of random thoughts that scroll through my brain at any given time of day. My mind is never silent. Interestingly, the most prolific generation of these small little microcosms of rampant ideas and incidental meanderings happen while I’m driving. For most, a turn of the key assaults their ears with some random melody on their favorite station. Some selecting playlists as their Bluetooth connects. A pleasurable focus as they meander from their point A to point B. Music, for me, is more of a distraction. I happily sit in silence, listening to the voice in my head. I still remember a conversation I had with my daughter about that ‘inner voice’. She would call these talks ‘deep thoughts’, and every now and then we’d engage in them. She’d ask questions like “Why do we hear our voices in our head? It is because that is where our brain is so it in our consciousness we project that to be where our voice is?” “If we’re not making any sound, how can we say we ‘hear’ our inner voice?” The questions would go on like that as we delved into the different scenarios and theorized. I do love those conversations with her. In her absence, I have them with myself. And now, here I am, sharing them with you. Letting you glimpse into the depths of my mind in the off chance you mind find it of some interest.
Though I did start this blog to share, I honestly didn’t expect anyone would bother to read, much less find any interest in it.
Today I decided to check back in. There wasn’t anything particularly special about today. Not a birthday or anniversary. No celebratory need. Oh I like that word. It just roles off the tongue with so many syllables. I’m sorry, I digress. A day like any other ordinary day. Another day to soon dwindle into inconsequence as most do. Not to have any significance. Though I am not in a particularly good mood, for reasons I won’t begin to bore you with.
What brought me here was to write a post that has some utility, regarding computer builds. What caught me off guard, though, was when I logged into the site (thank goodness for LastPass, or I would have never remembered how to connect!). As the familiar WordPress dashboard lit up on my monitor (a curved 32″ Samsung G7 that I just recently purchased and setup yesterday, to which I am thoroughly enjoying), noting the crispness of the display. Bright whites and crisp fonts. Not surprised to find a few updates were in order for plugins that I had installed and never activated.
My eyes wandered down to see I had a few small red markers on my blogs. Comments. Every site that I’ve ever set up, the comments that have always come when I’ve started a blog are those incessant bot comments that tell me about how the person was browsing my web site and found it completely fascinating, and could make it even better if I clicked on the link they provided. But that’s not what I found.
There was an actual comment. I had to read it a few times to see if I wasn’t just reading into it and there was some marketing quip or some random generation about it that I was missing. No, it was an actual comment. From a person. Who read my post. And found it interesting.
I stared at it for a while. Then read a few others. Not many. But just the mere fact that someone bothered to respond gave me such a delight. I suddenly had a wellspring of desire wash over me. A renewed sense if interest in penning something more. Perhaps there might be a few others that will be interested to hear me blather on about nothing in particular. Isn’t that how Seinfeld started? A show about nothing. A concept they even satirized on one of the episodes, because it was so absolutely implausible and nearly laughable, yet it worked. It not only worked, it became an incredible phenomenon.
I’m not likening my words on the page to anything of the sort, but for me, knowing that at some point, someone might stop to read, and be somewhat entertained, was enough for me to continue.
Before I get lost in the mire of my spiraling stream of consciousness, I do have a reason for stopping out. I’m going to create a new section, and write my first blog of some import and utility. Wish me luck! Hopefully it will be someone useful to someone.
